"Personal Damnation"

Thought you could play me,

thought I wouldn't see,

You made me feel like a fool.

I trusted you,

believed in you,

but to no satisfaction or guarantee.

Lied to me,

broke my heart,

but now the truth has finally come.

You used me,

as I suspected was the case.

I'm not a whore,

I'm not your door-step,

I'm not your own personal slave.

Don't like what I offer,

well than too bad.

Because offering you love and compassion was all I had in me.

You climbed the wall,

made me see "the light,"

and everything near and beyond.

But after that time,

you apparently gave up on me.

Breaking down the wall,

shattering the door to pieces,

You made a stampede out of my life.

I was upset then,

more than that I guess you could say.

But now I'm relieved.

I finally realized I'm not the only one you broke down.

You brought her up,

and threw her down.

Just the same as you did to me.

So I guess it wasn't my fault you did what you did,

you're just in your own personal damnation.

I'm not going to give you condolences,

or try to help you "find your way."

Want me to give you the opportunity to crush me alive again?

I don't think so hun.

Not now,not then.

So pack your bags,

get the hell out of here.

I'm done with your shit for good.

Don't wanna be alone?

Well go find someone who gives a damn,

because I gave you all I had left in me..

-MorganShiann

"Mistakes"

Betrayal,

Confusion,

they go hand in hand.

Sometimes you don't realize what you've done,

till the effects hit you hard.

You regret what happened.

You wish you could take it back.

But the truth is,

life is still going to go on.

Yes,you may have messed up.

No,you may not be able to change it.

But the difference is,

you can determine what you do.

You can go on with your life,

and live it up the best you can.

Or you can dwell on the past,

and let the present pass you by.

Leading on into the future,

it all comes together.

Everything doesn't happen for a reason,

but there are reasons things happen.

You messed up,

because you didn't see what was.

You let go,

because you were tired of holding on.

And you gave in,

because you weren't strong enough to hold on.

So yes,we make mistakes.

Embrace them.

Don't be ashamed of being human.

Keep moving forward in an era that wants to move back..

-MorganShiann

"Midnight Sun"

Midnight Sun,

so dark and dreary.

Midnight Sun,

I can't see clearly.

The stars are hiding oh too well.

The stars are hiding it seems like hell.

I search and I search,

for a way out.

I search and I search,

but I'm just raising doubt.

The Midnight Sun,

it hides the moon.

The Midnight Sun,

it seems like a tune.

The cry of the wolves,

only darkens the night.

The cry of the wolves,

it brings fright.

So I wonder now,

what I wondered then,

When will the Midnight Sun end?

-MorganShiann

"Red-Rimmed-Edges"

Everything's a blur.I can't see clearly.

The tears are blocking everything out.

Red rimmed edges,tears streaming over,

I can't help but to shut my eyes.

What I saw was worse than anything,

It was you not caring.

You gave up on me,

You finally let go.

Now I don't have anything to hold on to.

You were my savior,

but then you pushed me back into the darkness.

And I don't know how I'm going to get out of it.

I don't want to open my eyes,

because I'm afraid of what I'll see.

I want to remember you smiling,

and looking at me like I was your everything,

not a face of unrecognition.

It's just a blank stare,

with no feeling or emotion.

It's as if you're barely there.

That look hurts me more than anything.

More than any words ever could.

There's an emptiness in your eyes that wasn't there before.

And I don't know what to think about it.

The tension's in the atmosphere around us.

I can feel it pulsing through my veins.

Working through my nerves.

It's starting to break me down.

I can't open my eyes now,

even if I tried.

The cries are becoming to hard to bare.

My legs are giving out,

making it hard to stand any longer.

I dropped to my knees in dispair.

I can feel you come closer,

moving slowly in complete caution.

You hover a few feet away,

making sure not to come too close.

You whisper quietly,

as if you were speaking to yourself,

"I'm sorry.."

Those two words linger in the air.

I hear complete silence after a minute,

realizing I stopped sobbing.

Looking up to him I finally spoke..

"No,I'm the sorry one,I'm sorry I'll always love you..."

-MorganShiann

"Happiness"

Smiling slightly,

without a care in the world,

we walk down the path of life.

Hand in hand,

side by side,

you're here every waking moment.

I turn my head,

see you looking beyond,
and know that there's nothing better.

When I'm with you,

it's only us.

The world just melts away.

We follow the sunset,

down through the sand,

and into the calm, waiting ocean.

We walk on the edge,

where it's not too deep,

making sure we keep it all in sight.

The soar of the birds,

the sound of the wind,

nothing could be more peaceful.

The rays of light hit the landscape perfectly.

Making it all seem like a dream.

I feel as if I'm in a trance,

but for once I want to stay.

This is a place where I'm happy.

And I don't want to leave.

So I'm going to take it all in while I can...

We wade to a low rock,

when getting there he gestures for me to sit.

Fingers still locked,

we sit looking up at the sky.

He looks to me slowly.

I just shake my head,

because I know this is where I belong..

-MorganShiann